Be Bold When U Loose And Be Calm When U Win

好久没进来写部落格了。

好久没回来更新我的部落格了，超过半年了；其实也没有什么东西可以写，只想进来晃晃几下。

说实在的，我发觉自己越来越依赖你。怎么说，就是依赖就对了。

我怕黑，我怕暗，我怕没有什么人的地方，可是你却偏偏喜欢带我去这些地方。
我怕过一次了，我不想在怕多一次，那种感觉一点都不好。
我需要的是安全感，这是每个女孩都会想要的，可是我怎么觉得你不能给我呢？
然而，你每星期一和星期四晚上，你都会特地等我上完课陪我走路回家和吃饭，然后才回家。
就算你有事请，你都会特地赶来站在课室外面等我上完课，就算你很累、下雨，也一样。

有时候，我觉得你有点吵外加有点烦人。
我知道你为我好、关心我，可是当我想一个人静静的时候，可不可以让我静一静，你静静在旁边呆着、陪着我就好了。
当我在睡觉的时候，可不可以不要打扰我。这里不是我的家，我睡觉没有像在家里一样，睡到像死猪一样。
在这里，轻轻的动我、轻轻地说话，我都很容易被吵起来，而且我不喜欢在睡觉的时候被人吵起来。

有时候有什么事情，我都不会说出口，只会放在心上、或是写出来。
怎么说，我不喜欢把自己的事情告诉人任何人，对我来说说了等于没说。
我知道你很想知道我心里想什么，可是我试了很多次想告诉你，可是依然没说出口。
你给我的感觉就是，你突然不想知道了或者就是时间不对，每每我想告诉你的时候，你都不在我身边。

我知道你很迁就我，什么都让我，让我觉得自己越来越野蛮（可以这么说）。
我只肯别人听我说的，可我不想听别人说的，反正我都在做坏人，以致欺负你（嘿嘿）。

Long time didnt blogging already because this is short trimester, many things need to do, very busy (finding excuses). The actual reason is because I became lazy only.

Actully, I have a lot of things need to do, but i skipped half of it. After my MUET test, I became lazy. I skipped my table tennis and squash training. At here, I need to apologise to Yee Fan, my trainer of table tennis. I feel so sorry, you want train me well my table tennis skills, but I said to you that I am not free in this short trimester. Actually is I dont want go training. Unfortunately, you dont have my blog address, you cant see at all also. Haha. Week 3, my table tennis club had sold food and drinks at mosque there. I just went there help care the booth 1 day only, but i didnt help much. Another 2 days, I suppose go there give help, but i skipped too.

Besides that, I also skipped my Japanese extra class. This one cannot blame me. I dont know where is the venue and when is the time. But, I really scare i will fail in my Japanese test. I already threw around thousand Ringgit to learn this language. So, I cannot fail.

At here, I want apologise to my assignment leaders and my BEC partner. I feel so sorry, I just did my part only. The rest throw back to all of you. Hehe.

The last is my Tsu Chi. This short trimester already began 5 weeks, until now i just went for 1 event, put many aeroplanes.

忏悔当中......

今天真的很衰，我一生中最衰的日子！

早上，我跟我妹去pasar pagi（不是pasar，是pasar malam的倒反）买东西。
两个都没有驾照，就只好踏脚车出去。
当到那里时，我就有种不详的预感。我也不知道为什么。
我出门前，妈妈就说这台脚车有得锁，可是到那里，我锁不到，也不会锁，就心想应该不会被偷吧，每次都没锁。
哪里知道，一买完东西，准备回家，脚车不见，欲哭无泪。
结果，回到家，预期的，准中骂啦，不中骂就奇怪咯。
妈妈骂完，轮到二哥念，念完，轮到爸爸骂。

一句话，衰到家。
真搞不懂那个小偷，竟然偷一台不值钱的脚车，那么多台值钱的不偷...

Haiz…
I really hate English this subject, just because it is too flexible, can’t estimate what it will come out and not similar with other subjects that can memorize and understand easily.

The first paper is speaking test which held on 21st October.

Haiz…
My English just like kanasai. When I said out, it became other people jokes. Or not, nobody understands what I said. It really made me feel sad. I really envy these people who are strong in English, can communicate with others easily when using English. At the same moment, I just keep quiet at there or speak using Chinese.

Haiz…
Why when I heard you all said English just like kacang putih? For me, it looks like Petronas Twin Towers, too hard to achieve and score it. Except eat, drink, fun, and sleep, nothing I know especially in sports, language and ideas field. No have such cells in my body.


*Nothing for me, just feel stupid again. No need any concern, after this test, I will ok again.